Emotions are one of the hardest things to grasp. Not only for other people but for yourself. You have to believe you have everything, though you may have nothing. You have to take risks such as getting hurt, being yourself and taking on a challenge each day, but its up to you if you choose to take the risk. Sometimes i think that it may be easier to not have feelings and ignore them, and go with your head instead of your heart (excuse the cliche), but that would take the reason of the connection with people emotionally, good or bad.
I've learnt about myself over the past few weeks what kind of person i am, what i truely believe in and disbelieve. But above all, who i want to be and how i will achieve it. Personally, i did this by moving away from home to go to University. But i have had an epiphany. I have been making changes my whole life. We all have. And the best thing to do, is to let go of the past. Stop beating yourself about what "could" of been that never happened. Focus on the present and the good events in the future and not the potentially bad ones. It doesnt matter if you mess up, we all do.
The main thing is to follow what you believe is right. A person once told me, "sometimes you have to be selfish in certain decisions and think of your happiness and not concentrate on others, because the only person that is going to suffer, is you". Follow your heart, close your eyes and jump and go for what you know is right and dont give it a second thought, as i know that leads to self doubt and confusion of your emotions.
Love, is the hardest thing to express, explain and full understand as a whole. Couples say the cheesiest and cutest things to one another in attempt to comprohend their love. And honestly, love can't be described, it can't be understood and it can't be expressed to its full extent. But knowing that you do, is more worth while.
I don't know if i have in my past been in love, but i would like to think so. But one thing i did know was 'its better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all'
